Stuck in my mind

I have been trying to write. Not much is coming out. A paragraph here or there that is disjointed and never gets off the ground is all I've been able to produce recently. I think about writing every single day. I can't get the words out. I have so much stress in my life right now and not enough functionality to deal with it.

I feel guilty.

I feel I was put here to write stories, and I'm not doing what I am supposed to be doing. Instead, I'm dealing wtih all the things that are necessary to survive this society. Working, errands, chores. There isn't anything left of me except an unmotivated lump.

Ideas Without Form

One of the main problems I have with writing is when I come across ideas that won't take form. These ideas press against my brain but I can't capture and mold them into coherent stories. This, I think, is part of my racing thoughts and specifically flight of ideas. I have this symptom very regularly and it gets frustrating. I want to be able to write at will and not be dragged along by my uncooperative brain.

I'm hoping that soon some of these shapeless ideas start to stick together and give me some inspiration. I feel the urge to write but I don't have the mental stamina to make it real right now.

Story Update: A Cluttered Mind

I've added another story to A Cluttered Mind, once again following the same story thread as the dystopian world effected by sever global warming. You can read it here:
http://aclutteredmindstory.blogspot.com/

The question is whether to continue posting these stories into the Cluttered Mind blog or to give them their own story blog. I am trying to simplify for the time being to keep from losing more projects or taking on more than I can handle. This fictional future is very much clinging to my thoughts and so for now I'm just writing what comes to mind. I feel it's a better effort than not writing at all. Of course, I could fall off into another heavy writer's block, so I'm treading cautiously and not wanting to promise too much to myself.

Thank you for reading!

Story Update: A Cluttered Mind

I've updated with another short story in A Cluttered Mind. It follows along the same dystopian world as the first story, set in the same world. I feel a thread for this story pretty strongly and may stick to it for a while.

You can read it here:
http://aclutteredmindstory.blogspot.com/

I like the end of the world without the end of the world genre. The downfall of society, the after effect. This world we live in is full of imaginary things that we then give power. Money and Credit are two of these powerful, imaginary objects. The recent government shut down is just an example of how imaginary money really is, and credit for that matter. Does anyone think anyone can ever pay back a trillion dollars?

Our society hinges on these imaginary things, and that's why I like the after effect dystopia genre. Life would go one without these things. No one is a dollar sign, no one is a credit rating. And with the news of the possible impending climate change, I'm inspired to write this world where the climate (which is very real as opposed to zombies,) ends the world as we know it.

I'd like to start working on Aftermath again, but right now that well is dry. If this story continues, I may put Aftermath away and switch it out with this story instead. That's what happens sometimes with stories. They are living things and one idea may fall apart and another takes it's place.

Thank you for reading!

Too Many Ideas

One problem I struggle with is that I either have no ideas or, alternately, too many at once. With time constraints and thought pattern fluctuations, I struggle to write in both settings. Finding the perfect balance of ideas and time can be very difficult.

Even with endless days and time, I still struggle to write. I know this from previous experience. I used to blame my writer's block on simple things like a lack of inspiration. Over time, however, I come to see that writer's block is a complex animal. In the end, I think it isn't something that can be completely avoided.

My one hope is to continue writing whenever I am able. Instead of becoming angry at myself during a dry spell, I just need to wait it out. The ability to write is like the tide. Either it's rolling in or out, and sometimes it's a tsunami.

Story Update: A Cluttered Mind

I've made a change to my story blogs in that I'm turing A Cluttered Mind into a collection of short stories. I have a lot of ideas that suddenly fizzle out. I was thinking I should write these into short stories at the least. Even if I never go back to them, at least I was able to practice and get my ideas out. I'm also hoping it will be easier to update instead of trying to work on a larger project.

The first story is called Another Hot Day, and I was inspired to write it based on the current news that we can expect global warming to make noticable global changes in the year 2020 in tropical regions, and by 2045 in areas such as New York. I was thinking about how that is within my lifetime, how old I would be, and how grown my boys will be by then. I was thinking about what would happen to society, the changes that would be made, and how being dependant on government and economy would make it impossible for us to migrate the way our caveman ancestors would have done.

You can read the story here.

http://aclutteredmindstory.blogspot.com/

Thanks!

Starting to get ideas again

I've been having a long drought of ideas. Plus my work has kept me mentally supressed with projects and stress. But, I'm starting to get some ideas for stories. I'm hoping that things calm down at work. I'm hoping my mind clears so that I can write properly. I'd really like to get one of my stories completed at least. I'm hoping to update something again soon. I wish that my mind would focus and stay clear for longer periods of time.